uncertainty sets in for the very first time - i ask myself - how could i be sure? how could i ever be 100% sure that this is what i want for the rest of my life? what if it's a comfort zone too comfortable it blinded me? or worse, it made me weak and fearful to step out and look beyond that there could be better options than this?  

it might be a most selfish decision to make - but my bigger concern is missing a whole lot more for settlin too soon.

i think i just piled up on the mental folders of things i need to ponder on.
and most are major decisions of life.

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