Thursday, 28 March 2013
3 questions. i'm gonna ask them and forget about them.. already.
1. since when do you fancy yoga and thought of practising and learning it? (i rmbr ur disapproval / shock / smirk)
2. since when do you ... shoot. i forgot the Q even before asking. moving on....
3. since when do you fancy corgis too? seriously.
...
since we are asking questions. aren't you just dying for ppl to ask / notice your branded bag and wallet. which i'm not going to address. after much thought and struggling and trying, i still don't think i can be sincerely sincere to you... anymore. not for now. yet.
and that's pretty sad. well. actually not. considering it's even sadder if i fake it.
swimming plan #2 was scratched after making payment into the pool. reason being the pool was 1/4 full of kids, standing in the water -__- and also part of me freaked out. i was expecting the pool to be rather empty! i guess it was a smart idea to not touch the water anyways.. in view of the no. of many ahem. hygiene state dubious tweens and possible many googgley eye session. no thank you very much.
at times like these, i really really wish i have an apt of myself that i can swim all i want. or even better, a poolside house... like the one we had in our villa in Bali. hmmmmmmmm. a stand-alone room w a bath, with full length windown door/windows facing the pool, lined w frangipani trees! a bunny can dream! and in order to make possibly 1/100 of that dream possible, i have to hold on tight now and learn to be a good doc for now. i want to. i just need to know HOW to.
most of the time i feel like a headless bunny running into walls, and looking for burrows to hide. sigh.
anyways... i'm back in banland, with a few days to spare. routines as usual again. i'm glad in a way.. i'm put stay put for these few days. and more occupied and less driving to do. though the familiarity of my own house calls for me. sometimes, being away and being in a less comfortable zone does better to bringing out the good in us. yea?
i'm still having crazy pangs of cravings for sushi and the occasional curry. and omg i still haven't had the burkhara biryaniiiiiiii. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
and i hate this backache. it's like something i can't seem to crack and it's KILLING ME!
at times like these, i really really wish i have an apt of myself that i can swim all i want. or even better, a poolside house... like the one we had in our villa in Bali. hmmmmmmmm. a stand-alone room w a bath, with full length windown door/windows facing the pool, lined w frangipani trees! a bunny can dream! and in order to make possibly 1/100 of that dream possible, i have to hold on tight now and learn to be a good doc for now. i want to. i just need to know HOW to.
most of the time i feel like a headless bunny running into walls, and looking for burrows to hide. sigh.
anyways... i'm back in banland, with a few days to spare. routines as usual again. i'm glad in a way.. i'm put stay put for these few days. and more occupied and less driving to do. though the familiarity of my own house calls for me. sometimes, being away and being in a less comfortable zone does better to bringing out the good in us. yea?
i'm still having crazy pangs of cravings for sushi and the occasional curry. and omg i still haven't had the burkhara biryaniiiiiiii. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
and i hate this backache. it's like something i can't seem to crack and it's KILLING ME!
Wednesday, 20 March 2013
Sunday, 17 March 2013
福
listening to: xx - xx intro (sick beats!) and then mariah carey - almost home (ost for oz - because it's just too apt for me :()
tummy: had my fix of chee cheong fun! (had to settle for mediocre one though)
state: sleepy but need to put all these down. super happy cos i'm packing for home :) heading home right after night shift! tee hee
was supposed to blog about many things yesterday but i was practically a dead walrus on bed the time i got back after meeting up for coffee w cccc. which was a good meet-up :) we are the kind of friends that we can survive not talking to each other for a long time but when we do meet up finally, convos just never stopppppppp. god. i was getting dizzy from all *my* yakkings.
anyways.... i have a few things i need to address.
a matter of lines and perseverance
1. am taking all the babies into my own hands for line setting. just because i want and need to get all the practices i can have. it's uber upsetting. at times i feel like just crying.... setting them lines. sigh. frustrating much. the sheer RAWRRRRNESS when you see back flow but line bunks the hell out. :( i was so upset the other day cos i had a rather big vein but still it bunked. was pretty pissed at myself after that. but lucky nicko helped me and pushed me on - so i managed to set one nicely at the end of the day, literally. was so pleased. repeat cycle again and i find myself at the end of the b|braun feeling like....... just killing myself setting these lines. sigh. i just need to master this ART of line setting. still groping around for the holy grail. as to howwwwwwwww.
my very own alter ego ( w bigger and very beautiful eyes lol)
2. there's a new girl and observing the way that she talks / swears / get mad / expresses herself / her get angry makes me feel like i have finally..... LIKE FINALLY.... met my EQUAL, my alter ego. i hve not in my life seen anyone so... angry / fierce / so pissed at the smallest thing / so petty / so rude at times / mean too / and just so negative at times that resemble myself so much. which is a good thing.. because i won't say i like all of those qualities that much. but it's so me. so i need to change. i need to keep all these emotions in check and not just BLAH them out like that. that's a matter of maturity. professionalism. and knowing how to keep one's cool. it's annoying to be so angry and negative at everything. it is. (though i'd like to think it's cool to be so outspoken but it's not. but it's oky if one's loud to spread love and happiness around) (fyi there's afghan and chinese blood running in her)
heart strings
3. it was my first time i felt my heart dropped in my stomach when a mom didn't feel like telling the reason why she's reluctant to room in w her baby. i was trying my best to explain to her the pros - but she just had this sweet smile on her harmless young burmese face.. shaking her head. i invited her to sit down to close the gap. and she opened up and confided in fluent malay that ... her concerns are the bills. that's when my heart dropped. i mean. how could i not thought of that. i tried to keep my cool and also to keep my tears in. tried to find out if there's anyway we could help her and to see how bad the damage would be. i only had one thing in mind right after that. to help her pay her bills.
if not part of it.
sometimes we're so lucky we forgot. like the chinese saying 生在福中不知福 'living in 幸福 blessings, but ignorant of it'
tummy: had my fix of chee cheong fun! (had to settle for mediocre one though)
state: sleepy but need to put all these down. super happy cos i'm packing for home :) heading home right after night shift! tee hee
was supposed to blog about many things yesterday but i was practically a dead walrus on bed the time i got back after meeting up for coffee w cccc. which was a good meet-up :) we are the kind of friends that we can survive not talking to each other for a long time but when we do meet up finally, convos just never stopppppppp. god. i was getting dizzy from all *my* yakkings.
anyways.... i have a few things i need to address.
a matter of lines and perseverance
1. am taking all the babies into my own hands for line setting. just because i want and need to get all the practices i can have. it's uber upsetting. at times i feel like just crying.... setting them lines. sigh. frustrating much. the sheer RAWRRRRNESS when you see back flow but line bunks the hell out. :( i was so upset the other day cos i had a rather big vein but still it bunked. was pretty pissed at myself after that. but lucky nicko helped me and pushed me on - so i managed to set one nicely at the end of the day, literally. was so pleased. repeat cycle again and i find myself at the end of the b|braun feeling like....... just killing myself setting these lines. sigh. i just need to master this ART of line setting. still groping around for the holy grail. as to howwwwwwwww.
my very own alter ego ( w bigger and very beautiful eyes lol)
2. there's a new girl and observing the way that she talks / swears / get mad / expresses herself / her get angry makes me feel like i have finally..... LIKE FINALLY.... met my EQUAL, my alter ego. i hve not in my life seen anyone so... angry / fierce / so pissed at the smallest thing / so petty / so rude at times / mean too / and just so negative at times that resemble myself so much. which is a good thing.. because i won't say i like all of those qualities that much. but it's so me. so i need to change. i need to keep all these emotions in check and not just BLAH them out like that. that's a matter of maturity. professionalism. and knowing how to keep one's cool. it's annoying to be so angry and negative at everything. it is. (though i'd like to think it's cool to be so outspoken but it's not. but it's oky if one's loud to spread love and happiness around) (fyi there's afghan and chinese blood running in her)
heart strings
3. it was my first time i felt my heart dropped in my stomach when a mom didn't feel like telling the reason why she's reluctant to room in w her baby. i was trying my best to explain to her the pros - but she just had this sweet smile on her harmless young burmese face.. shaking her head. i invited her to sit down to close the gap. and she opened up and confided in fluent malay that ... her concerns are the bills. that's when my heart dropped. i mean. how could i not thought of that. i tried to keep my cool and also to keep my tears in. tried to find out if there's anyway we could help her and to see how bad the damage would be. i only had one thing in mind right after that. to help her pay her bills.
if not part of it.
sometimes we're so lucky we forgot. like the chinese saying 生在福中不知福 'living in 幸福 blessings, but ignorant of it'
Saturday, 16 March 2013
of solo dinners / solo 'adventures'
mood: pissed
listening: red fm eradio - live performances - was particularly enjoying Sunday morning by maroon 5 and realized that it could just be one of my favouritest songs along w 'drops of jupiter' by train :)
hormonal cycle: fucked up!
which explains my many volcanic eruptions over my forehead, it's 100x worse than puberty. fml. puberty din hit me so bad. not at all in fact when it comes to acne and stuff. so this is by far, the worst. and i'm starting to feel my ex roomie. wtf. not that i'm going to freak out all bout it. just gonna let it be for now and TRY not to scratch. it's just a phase that will soon pass too. like many other things.
//
funny but it's ironic how i can totally relate to one of taylor swift's song (which is also the only song of hers i can tolerate). i knew you were trouble when you walked in / so shame on me now //// and i realize the joke is on me yeah!
//
braved the chicken-causing traffic in town and realized one could actually drive around in this small town and get stuck for say, 2 hours. omg. found the public pool but i was 5 days too late fml. closed down for reno until...... date undisclosed. fyi, i didn't see any works in progress. *shrugs* just when i thought i could do something to entertain myself. i guess it's back to being alone and solo and by myself all sien again. zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
//
trying to get more sleep and squeen in more reading. i'm sleepy already. good night world xx
listening: red fm eradio - live performances - was particularly enjoying Sunday morning by maroon 5 and realized that it could just be one of my favouritest songs along w 'drops of jupiter' by train :)
hormonal cycle: fucked up!
which explains my many volcanic eruptions over my forehead, it's 100x worse than puberty. fml. puberty din hit me so bad. not at all in fact when it comes to acne and stuff. so this is by far, the worst. and i'm starting to feel my ex roomie. wtf. not that i'm going to freak out all bout it. just gonna let it be for now and TRY not to scratch. it's just a phase that will soon pass too. like many other things.
//
funny but it's ironic how i can totally relate to one of taylor swift's song (which is also the only song of hers i can tolerate). i knew you were trouble when you walked in / so shame on me now //// and i realize the joke is on me yeah!
//
braved the chicken-causing traffic in town and realized one could actually drive around in this small town and get stuck for say, 2 hours. omg. found the public pool but i was 5 days too late fml. closed down for reno until...... date undisclosed. fyi, i didn't see any works in progress. *shrugs* just when i thought i could do something to entertain myself. i guess it's back to being alone and solo and by myself all sien again. zzzzzzzzzzzzzz
//
trying to get more sleep and squeen in more reading. i'm sleepy already. good night world xx
Friday, 15 March 2013
slow down.
what's my purpose in life?
i'm living life day to day. not thinking about it. but really. what's all this rat race about? work. money. people. stories.
i've had my share of inspirations but when will i say, 'hey, this is what i'm going to strive to achieve. and i'm going to do it.'
i'm living life day to day. not thinking about it. but really. what's all this rat race about? work. money. people. stories.
i've had my share of inspirations but when will i say, 'hey, this is what i'm going to strive to achieve. and i'm going to do it.'
Tuesday, 12 March 2013
a lil bit of tears, love and nomless.
cried a small bucket load - after effects of watching million dollar baby by myself. LIKE FUCKING FINALLY. i've always wanted to watch it so FINALLY. also made a new list of movies to watch :)
the movie? it was amazing of course. seeing how the tear drop rating is so high.
anyways... i was just thinking... how they always ask, what kind of movies do you like to watch? considering how the cinemas are loaded w crap movies these days.. well most of the time anyways.. and i realized other than my tear-o-meter, there's also another one.... it's the IMDB ratings of 8 and above! lol and the occsional 7.9.
so............ now i'm alone. eyes swollen. gleeful tmrw's course starts at 9 and ENDS AT 5. i'm scheming a trip back to panda household. teehee. and my tummy's scheming a mc egg deluxe try out. HO HUM. i've been holding back w the noms lately... it's the post-cny cleansing. it has to be done. body is showing them fatssssss. i shall start sweating it and working it out a lil bit more too. hence, justifying my planned buy w the hnm pink work out top LOL!!!!!!
that's all for now. will need to zzzzz soon. after apeasing the tummy a lil. aaaaah how i wish i can have a damn ramly burger now. stupid place. i wish i'm in subang. good god.
and get some reading before sleeeep. where's my remote for the lights already!!!
LOVE. night world.
the movie? it was amazing of course. seeing how the tear drop rating is so high.
anyways... i was just thinking... how they always ask, what kind of movies do you like to watch? considering how the cinemas are loaded w crap movies these days.. well most of the time anyways.. and i realized other than my tear-o-meter, there's also another one.... it's the IMDB ratings of 8 and above! lol and the occsional 7.9.
so............ now i'm alone. eyes swollen. gleeful tmrw's course starts at 9 and ENDS AT 5. i'm scheming a trip back to panda household. teehee. and my tummy's scheming a mc egg deluxe try out. HO HUM. i've been holding back w the noms lately... it's the post-cny cleansing. it has to be done. body is showing them fatssssss. i shall start sweating it and working it out a lil bit more too. hence, justifying my planned buy w the hnm pink work out top LOL!!!!!!
that's all for now. will need to zzzzz soon. after apeasing the tummy a lil. aaaaah how i wish i can have a damn ramly burger now. stupid place. i wish i'm in subang. good god.
and get some reading before sleeeep. where's my remote for the lights already!!!
LOVE. night world.
freeee
ha! finally! i'm feeling so relieved now after getting half of that NRP out of the way today. having said that, i might need to redo parts of it, but at least it's done. for now :) and another reason for celebration would be attending a lab thingy course tmrw meaning no work :D how awesome is that? i was practically raising both my hands and jumping up and down when the HO leader was telling me about it LOL but i was already hand-chosen of course :)
anyways... finally some ME TIME! yayyyyyy! though i did fantasize about a pizza dinner i was also thinking of movie for one. at home. sigh. how nice. though i wouldn't mind having a cocktail or 2 w someone, and just to have a lil tete-a-tete too. but alas....
so! some blogs and online shopping first! and then perhaps a movie and some bed time reading to cap the night :) but really, my favorite time is INSTAGRAMING. it's just.... amazing. how one can almost 'travel the world' by feasting my eyes through that square box. i just wish i have the chance and funds to travel to all the beautiful places and try all the yummy looking noms and look at all the marvelous architectures and play w all the beautiful dogs :D
on a random note: i'd really like to have a lobster sandwich. though i've never tried one and could only imagine how it tastes like... hmmmm
source
i'm thinking it must have something to do this entry of my favouritest blog.
and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh how i miss cooking!
anyways... finally some ME TIME! yayyyyyy! though i did fantasize about a pizza dinner i was also thinking of movie for one. at home. sigh. how nice. though i wouldn't mind having a cocktail or 2 w someone, and just to have a lil tete-a-tete too. but alas....
so! some blogs and online shopping first! and then perhaps a movie and some bed time reading to cap the night :) but really, my favorite time is INSTAGRAMING. it's just.... amazing. how one can almost 'travel the world' by feasting my eyes through that square box. i just wish i have the chance and funds to travel to all the beautiful places and try all the yummy looking noms and look at all the marvelous architectures and play w all the beautiful dogs :D
on a random note: i'd really like to have a lobster sandwich. though i've never tried one and could only imagine how it tastes like... hmmmm
source
i'm thinking it must have something to do this entry of my favouritest blog.
and ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh how i miss cooking!
Friday, 8 March 2013
stay.
weather: warm like fuuuuuuu
tummy: fungry
dinner: friend meehoon w egg w weird sauce from the cafeteria
current song on loop: stay - rihanna
hey blog. i have forsaken you for long. i've just been.... dead tired. despite work ending at 6 these days. i'm haunted by the thoughts of having to revise for nrp. which makes me dread it even more. actually it's really quite bearable and at parts, even fun to read. i dunno this is the non existent nerd in me speaking or it's me really liking paeds. but alas, just when i take a fancy to it, i had a pretty hard start at work today. but it's okay... things pick up. or i'll have to pick myself up eventually. there's nothing really to mop about anyways. i don't wanna embrace a loser mentality here. esply at work.
let me digress a lil.
i'm not even sure it's retail therapy or just.... purchasing things i fancy aka shopping anymore. each other week i'll be dying for this visit to hnm and i go scanning every rack and trying to miss something i fancy and AHA buy buy buy when i do. i'm particularly more concerned now that i've got 2 plastics. *gulp*
still. the scrooge in me stands firm. still nothing more than rm30 / rm50. wtf
source
like this babyyyyyyy that i've been eyeing since like FOREVER but i was like 5 mins lateeeeee on the first day so i ended with stalking this lady w the dress in her shopping bag which she ended up buying fuuuuuuu so i returned the other day, despite making crazy calls to the shop and making ths SAs call other outlets. yes that's how i do my shopping thank you very much and h&m should make me their vip member or something or that sort already!!! i'm like the ... biggest fan. if you don't know arleady. practically, everything i own in my closet is H&M and every piece of cloth item / bag that i wanna buy and don and be seen in is H&M. if it's something of other brands that i fancy, i'd even be reluctant to buy just because it's not H&m. i just had to make sure they don't have the same thing first. wtf wtf is wrong w me! i'm a freak.
one of my latest bestest buys from them are these pima cotton tops that are going for an amazing rm29 which are the comfiest tops i've ever had. best for work and leisure :))))
but really... there are so many other things that i'm lusting for still...... like that divided floral shirt? or that cute babydoll slip. those comfy hipsters. the lana del ray-ish shift dress. that pair of fitting pants in geometric prints. goddddddd. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy why dont i have time to wear all those things that i so wanna wear T_T
one thing i must give myself credit for will have to be that self-inflicted (and much deserving) shoe ban. i'm actually afraid of looking at shoes these days. in fear that i fall in love w a pair and had to make the heart-breaking decision of NOT buying them. but really, my collection of shoes thus far is..... enough to send a shiver down my spine. so nope.... no more shoes for now. until i get a wall cupboard for everything to go up and for me to get a good view so i acutally know WHAT shoes i own so i can wear and match them out. jesus.
okay, that's all the fashion rant is. i'm missing my uni buddies much. very very much. from the boys, esply giin cheong and aty aka smk, to kae kae and sararah... to the boys and berne b... and to those that i didn't even have time to get to know more. i guess my heart just cracked a lil.. looking at the pics we took and the rad times we had. they were... simply put... beautiful. times i'd never forget.
tummy: fungry
dinner: friend meehoon w egg w weird sauce from the cafeteria
current song on loop: stay - rihanna
hey blog. i have forsaken you for long. i've just been.... dead tired. despite work ending at 6 these days. i'm haunted by the thoughts of having to revise for nrp. which makes me dread it even more. actually it's really quite bearable and at parts, even fun to read. i dunno this is the non existent nerd in me speaking or it's me really liking paeds. but alas, just when i take a fancy to it, i had a pretty hard start at work today. but it's okay... things pick up. or i'll have to pick myself up eventually. there's nothing really to mop about anyways. i don't wanna embrace a loser mentality here. esply at work.
let me digress a lil.
i'm not even sure it's retail therapy or just.... purchasing things i fancy aka shopping anymore. each other week i'll be dying for this visit to hnm and i go scanning every rack and trying to miss something i fancy and AHA buy buy buy when i do. i'm particularly more concerned now that i've got 2 plastics. *gulp*
still. the scrooge in me stands firm. still nothing more than rm30 / rm50. wtf
source
like this babyyyyyyy that i've been eyeing since like FOREVER but i was like 5 mins lateeeeee on the first day so i ended with stalking this lady w the dress in her shopping bag which she ended up buying fuuuuuuu so i returned the other day, despite making crazy calls to the shop and making ths SAs call other outlets. yes that's how i do my shopping thank you very much and h&m should make me their vip member or something or that sort already!!! i'm like the ... biggest fan. if you don't know arleady. practically, everything i own in my closet is H&M and every piece of cloth item / bag that i wanna buy and don and be seen in is H&M. if it's something of other brands that i fancy, i'd even be reluctant to buy just because it's not H&m. i just had to make sure they don't have the same thing first. wtf wtf is wrong w me! i'm a freak.
one of my latest bestest buys from them are these pima cotton tops that are going for an amazing rm29 which are the comfiest tops i've ever had. best for work and leisure :))))
but really... there are so many other things that i'm lusting for still...... like that divided floral shirt? or that cute babydoll slip. those comfy hipsters. the lana del ray-ish shift dress. that pair of fitting pants in geometric prints. goddddddd. whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy why dont i have time to wear all those things that i so wanna wear T_T
one thing i must give myself credit for will have to be that self-inflicted (and much deserving) shoe ban. i'm actually afraid of looking at shoes these days. in fear that i fall in love w a pair and had to make the heart-breaking decision of NOT buying them. but really, my collection of shoes thus far is..... enough to send a shiver down my spine. so nope.... no more shoes for now. until i get a wall cupboard for everything to go up and for me to get a good view so i acutally know WHAT shoes i own so i can wear and match them out. jesus.
okay, that's all the fashion rant is. i'm missing my uni buddies much. very very much. from the boys, esply giin cheong and aty aka smk, to kae kae and sararah... to the boys and berne b... and to those that i didn't even have time to get to know more. i guess my heart just cracked a lil.. looking at the pics we took and the rad times we had. they were... simply put... beautiful. times i'd never forget.
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