Its been 6 days and finally a day off. A much needed one. Though I may feel the fatigue bt a bit off time is really good for the mind.

First off, I wanna talk bout this pt who"s blind on both eyes bt w the lost dedicated, gentle n loving wife. I really felt so much for them. Though he was blinded, he's really one of the sweetest, funniest and just down right sincere person i've ever seen. It just doesn't seem fair sometimes. Cos it really isn't.

Sleepy now n missing d wrong person. Good night. God I missed kl.

X

Dew drops of poison.

You're the very poison that stirs me awake at 5.30 every morning.

Stinging me w your drops of dew.

Though curing my curiosity, I'm now addicted for more.

Summertime sadness

Though I must say I'll never the same again.

Only lara del rey for now. For this.

Dont hate the player they say

You've dealt your cards but it was my game to lose. Now I know better that you're nothing but a player. A poker face even.

Your very feelings and intentions, are only yours to know and keep.

It was nice to know you while it lasted.

I've been truly tested.

Tales of small towns.

I'm up again at this familiar hour now at 5.30. Somehow it's easing up to me. Perhaps it is a subconcious thing my body interprets. As though my body is being primed by the mind.

Now I wish my brain gets some upgrading.

It rained pretty much the whole day yesterday but I liked the fresh air and cool whispy breese it brought along with. For also I felt like I am going through this sense of renewal - something like a huge pour would wash away. I'm surprised even the most die-hard guilt didn't survive too.
I'm not sure if it rained in moscow but I think it did n passed on my regards to the serene green paddy fields up north.

I'm pretty proud of myself that I'm still surviving now. To be honest, I didn't really feel fearful. I guess it just didn't come to mind. To be here in another state all by myself wo knowing anyone in d hosp.

So far I really have lady luck to thank for. Been really very lucky w many things and having many checking on me. I feel so so so loved.

The only thing I miss? Would be the city life.

I'd die trying to be a proud owner of a condo near klcc n just hang there. Walk over to BB for H&M, read at kinokuniya, have beef noodles near masjid jamek, n swim at d condo pool n have frens over for cocktails.

Wahhhhh I can have such big dreams and 'ambitious' eh? But a bunny can dream! And dream big she shall: )

God. Sometimes I think about it and really think that its a lil bit crazy to be away from kl again after all these years in shithole-land moscow.

But I guess whenever I feel jumpy about this decision of mine, i'd recall d reason as to rly why I decided so mich earlier on and I'm at peace again. Knowing this is fr the bigger good. No matter how hard it is fr me to even predict it'd turn out to be  in the future.

But really, sometimes I'm just thinking way too much.

Sentiments from a farmer's sungai.

I wish u din have to go so soon. Leaving me 'forever alone-ish'.

It is nice to have company going through the same thing.

It's been really nice: )

Still I wish u din have to go. But i wouldn't have gotten an x if not so.

Day 1 of work is not work! Lapor diri and many hours of waiting later I went home w cheras pau wtf.

Anyways no work means induction n orientation stuff starting tmrw.

I was busy looking fr spots where my 3g works: / half a day later battery dieded on me. That explains the 2 batts. Which I'm bringing tmrw. Hehe

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Staying w le uncle n aunt is surprisingly fun. Helped out w uncle fr dinner and it cracks me up but melts my heart athe same time to be reminded of my dad. Thanks to my uncle's uncanny resemblance esply in the way that he speaks! God!

Defo a plus to stay here bt uncle's working in other state.. so.  

Today was many things, but one thing I must self remind is that I am a lucky bunny.

Perhaps its how we put things into perception too but like some said, we have to bring out the positivity out of things.

:)

Something broken but beautiful is in you. I can almost touch it.

A for a little bit.

Isn't it funny how a turned head w a wide smile can melt your heart and put an even wider one on yours the split second you allow it.

I am now in seremban. Day 1 of HO starts today since it's already 15th.

Current mood? Not so much of scared shyt but worried.

Tmrw will be just fine.: )

god why am i inflicting this upon myself :( it's just so easy to tell myself to not think about it and what-not, but brain or heart, i can't tell which already, just won't listen. :(

i just can't rest my mind now. i can't sleep. i need to know.

i need an explanation. or a closure. whichever it is.

this is bad.........

pilot.

Hi! this marks the end of something but the beginning of many more.

this is to the little bunny that's about to step up to life as it is.

whose heart is a sea of angry waves and mind of lost thoughts.

this may not be the right time for many things too :( but i guess life's a bitch like that. you only have one decision to make and either you stick w it (along w its consequences too) or you don't. making sure you don't have a chance of finding out forever how it would be if you've chosen otherwise.

this makes a rather shaky confusing first post. but i can't put this anymore verbal in any other ways.

oh god.