Bad fire.

Really need to put out the fire in this bunny.: (

cny !

Paying all my dues before the new year!

YayyyY the cny is here again! i have no idea why the excitement but i guess it's the combination of everything... the nostalgia of childhood cny years.. the get together.. the ambience.. the cny food.. the atmosphere.. the feeling of 'bahagia-ness'.. the tv ads.. the cookies.. the ang paos.. the talking..the decor..  the TRAFFIC or lack thereof in KL WOO HOO! .. everything. did i miss out anything?

i love the air of cny. i feel like i'm back when i was a girl. in my new clothes and shoes. *shrugs*
now i'm anticipating for cny like a girl again hahahaha... i dunno. maybe it's the home coming... and also everything mentioned above. i just hope the good times can always pass by slower. (really wish i have doraemon gadgets. now i'm thinking of a clock that i can wind and unwind to control to pace of time)

so.... A few more days to go! but before that... a detour to nyonyaland and thenback home to KL-land! wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee SO HAPPY!!! wish i can like two weeks off. wah.

a bunny can dream.

Rock bottom

I'm so meh-feeling now. Like I am so apathic and not givinf a shit to anyone anything. Why why why why. I don't like this.

I also feel so alone and i wish time will pass by so quickly I don't feel a thing. Thing is I will only be standing at the same spot ... pining. For something to happen.

Gah.

Horn.

Today, i was saved by a horn. It was a night of interrupted 'naps' - a cold night punctuated with ladies rushed in; bearing down, of six-digit babies to check. So needless to say,  i was fenging by the time the morning peeps came around. The plan is to drive down to malacca for our weekly rendevous, which happened to be have happened. It really wasn't my night shift but long story short, it's mine to hold up till the next day. As delirious as i was that i get to meet le panda, though for 2 short separate intervals (both of which we'll be wuzzy from the night shifts respectively) but we're both happy for what the unvierse has never fail to hand us. and our philosophy now is 'we'll take it' you know, thank you very much.

It was a one hour drive and it just seem... to be without an end. the n-s highway goes on and on and on on a straight road and everything looks the same. i was about to reach my destination, and that's when it happened. i mean, i've been dozing on and off on the road, but i heard a horn, and thank goodness i heard the horn, it was akin to inception, the movie. like from a distance, you heard, a warning. and that's when i woke up, steered away just in time from ramming into the highway divider merely a feet from my car, at 120kmph.

i teared into panda's arms when i reached. now i'm so traumatized to drive again. :(

i could have died today. but i'm here now becos a kind soul tried to warn me. And suddenly, everything seems so... fragile. that a second could give and take EVERYTHING away.

Today, i was saved by a horn.

*sigh*

Lucky bunny.

I'm so .... happy. So grateful for the people I have around me. Cliche... but true. I am not a person of many friends. But Those that I have close to me are people whom I am so grateful and appreciative of having.

Kaofu - for standing in as a life coach and a father figure.
Mom - for the help despite the occasional nagging.
Mommypanda - for making me understand that there are truly such generous persons around.
Jing and K - for being my reason of joy in banland.
Binui - for being the weird sister.
Brahder- for being so helpful in times of need.
Jocey and simon - for being supportive and lending ur ears... to this ranty friend.
The moscow gang and of course, sararah - for always bringing me a smile when I go nostalgic. To know that I have befriended u all and have u all in my life.
And last but not least, my panda. Who has been my pillar, my source of love, my nom buddy , my laughing friend, my traveling kaki. I love you so much and I don't know how I'm capable of loving you even more and more each day. Its just amazing.

Ok that's all. I'd like to say! I'm really thankful for you all... for taking care of this clumsy bunny. Very lucky bunny indeed.