October.

October is a month of changing of roles or can i say upgrading? Became a momo. Also wife to my panda.

And it is way too cliche but how fast does time fly?! Today is the last day of October and looking back, despite the 'change of roles' how much did i really adapt into these roles?

Semi momo and semi wife.

But there is progress. Improvement required swiftly... for the former. As for the latter i cant wait to have the full fledge ceremony done! Will be so fun!

I cant wait to try gowns n check out places!! Heeeeeeee

In a nutshell.

This past week has been a most emotionally challenging one.. didnt know i would have so so so many things to think about and have so many new angles brought into the equation if not for all that has arised.

So many ppl saying n telling me so many things. And as a result... it really puts me into perspective as to where exactly they come from ... its so perplexing. It can make one be so doubtful n question everything and everyone for that matter all over again.

I believe that people are a reflection of what they say and do. And it really goes to show their stand point and intention. everyone talks for the sake of talking. They dont really care... or care about you. After all..  ppl are only human and selfish. Self always comes first.

It is so mind blowing on so many levels. so before i let what anyone have to say or do gets me on a doubt or guilt trip again. Just shut it already ppl. 'Advices' and talking is cheap. your take on it doesnt really matter. And how ppl feed on gossips n news of others! It is obscene. Shame on you. I am so done w the emotional roller coaster. I am numb from feelings and frozen from thoughts.

I dont know what to feel or think anymore and this breakdown is timely albeit not necessary. We are now.. officially a two man island. must as well make it fun. Suckers.