the eluded ones.

the 2014 thomas cup was just over... we lost by a mere few points... again. fml but i can totally relate to that.. it's like THE story of my life.. being ever so close.. but never ever able to gain entry.. to taste what victory truly taste like. 

i'm reading 'the triple package'.. by tiger mom amy chu and her better half.. jed rubenfeld. there are somethings that i can relate to and then some. Question is.. why am i not anywhere near successful? i still have a lot of reading to do.. also a lot of buckling up. 

just like the malaysian team... so close yet so far. when's the real break? 

stale.

day 3 at bandar bersejarah. le panda is sometimes at work and not w me. been alone most of the time too. but i stayed despite the long hours by mysef.. just so i could be w le panda on the left over hours... whatever that's left. love, i guess is sometimes... possesive and selfish. well. i saw that in le panda this week. also in the past weeks.

now i have corrine bailey rae playing in my headphones while le panda is snoozing away.. his breathing.. heavy w a lil bit of snoring. i really shouldn't be complaining.

but sometimes, life does get boring. i feel so weighed down by the mundane-ness of everyday life.. of nothing ever happening. or perhaps i should put it... I made nothing happen. i, we, need to be more productive. other than looking for things or thinking or plaecs to go eat. it's almost disgusting. at least that's what i FEEL now.

we should be using our brains more.for  something more intellectual.




it's scary how life is so .. still.

Mama.

it's mother's day! 

though it breaks me that i'm not w my mummy now 

it somehow kept us closer 

like how i wouldn't say 

i love you 

out loud 

or how she wouldn't say 

'proud and honored' 

but with the distance 

it feels... 

only natural. 

// 

w the new developments 

new faces emerge after old layers peeled off

it chips my heart off 

to see, 

how some things hurts mummy 

all i can do is to ensure 

i wouldn't do the same to her. 

at times

i wonder how a brain of a cow works. 

but of course 

a bunny can try but never fathom. 

// 

it's funny how ageing growing up 

enables me to see the greatness of a mother's love 

and how only mothers are capable of such love

//

happy mother's day mama! 

this bunny here loves you. 

p/s: what a coincidence that the google logo decided to put on a mother w her 2 kids cycling.. 

my mom didn't know how to cycle. 

but she taught us all how to. 

AMAZING or what. 

In bed. After work. Clean after a good warm shower. Listening to the best 90's songs. Spent some time w d uncle n aunty. Life can be Simple, a lil less lonely too.