paris nights and new york morning

have you ever missed someone so badly that it no longer feels like he's ever replaceable? that if i could, i'd run w my barefoot to him. because i'm this sure that he's that special someone for me. that i knew but didn't have the balls to put my neck on it. for i know a million years would come by and i wouldn't be able to find another one like him, who moulds us into one.

i'm just wandering, lost, back to everything that's familiar to us, to me. do you even know how it feels like? like i'm living in this parallel universe that we've always lived in, just you're no longer here now. you're not home, not sporting that cheeky smile, not everywhere that i look for. no face of yours, no voice of yours, no hands of yours. i'm scared and i'm waiting and waiting for you to hold my hands and hold me so tight to assure me that everything's going to be alright. that i'm going to be alright. that we're going to be just fine.

i'm having so many luggages that this lil white boat is sinking.

i just wish to see you and hold you and kiss you before i go.

and know everything's going to be okay.

 

that very nook you said was so cozy and it was

 

pierre hermes macarons w you on eiffel tower, why did we even do that? 

 

the glorious glorious chocolate and banana french crepe, boy we were on heaven! 

this is for you my love. 

i really don't think i can say enough of how much i miss you or how much i wish you're here. 

it's been almost 3 months. i can't believe it. 

i just wish when i open my eyes it'd be a year past, and i have you w me. 

and really, that's all that matters to me now.