dealbreaker?

i feel like i've got so much to say, to rant, to wail, to cry about, and then to laugh about, to ponder upon, to shut the hell up about too... but above all, i have so much love to spread out to. so so much. i just need to find the right people.

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i miss kl like crazy. like i've never did in the past 6 years in moscow 8118km away. i miss all the chinese food. the warmth of being at home and knowing that everything's going to be okay. to be in the pulsating city knowing it will garner you wealth if you look and work hard enough for it. i miss being an unemployed bunny.  being able to sleep w/o having to be plagued w nightmares of waking up late for work, worried sick about your pt's CT brain or US KUB :(

having said that, i'm enjoying loads bout the new friendships knitted here. though i'd love to have more time to get to know them more thereafter.

if only we could get a day off and head off to the beach or something!

instead, i think i'll be speeding my way through home. sharing richdad's sentiments, it was really a feeling i've never felt all my life upon seeing signboards bearing 'sempadan selangor darul ehsan', 'subang jaya', 'kuala lumpur', 'kompleks sukan negara' and 'cheras'. with each, my excitement heightens and my heart swells w delight. i don't even know how to explain this change in me that clings on to home so much.

absolutely didn't foresee this much-looked-forward-to-homecomings.

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on other heart matters, i really do miss le panda a lot. it's really like a stable angina thing. only hurts when it's done so, when i casually gave it a thought. on other matters, i really should do the same too and be careful w where my heart lingers. some thoughts are dangerous to harbour.

but again, sharing sentiments w le richdad - sometimes we don't even know what we want in life.