showing some stripes!

damn. i miss moscow. so much. i'm currently reading up on who's prokofiev and listening to his compos of course. amazing so far. i don't know much but these russki musical maestros are fucking good. anyways... i'm freaking hooked on this battle hymn book. wtf i can't stop thinking about it and stalking the book and the characters (which are of course real life people! - which makes it easier right.... but creepy oh so creepy! but in my defense they are for real and they are so inspiring) reading it makes me feel, i had my life so easy. though not in a good way. i didn't know all these prodigies are from such hard work. okay maybe we all knew, but we din know how bad their drill really were. but it's like it's all out - the secret's out - that it's all pure hard work. and i think of course, talent to begin with. thinking back, i did almost have the same revelation when i was younger w my electone(organ) lessons. i dreaded saturdays... for i have finally a day off from school but HEY! there's this organ class to chase all the fun away :( i hated the practicing as much as the lessons. but as i grew up playing it, i grew fonder of it too. i soon found myself practising bcos i find fun in it. and that i WANTED to. though reading the battle hymn book made me feel soooooooooooooo barbaric on too many levels. now i just feel like ALL MY YEARS are wasted. i also wished i had tiger mom fml. why am i so morbid. i mean, her strict ways may not agree w many many, in fact, i don't think anyone would dig it, but it made a lot of sense at the end of the day. you see results. and perhaps, that's all that matters at the end of the day.(sprinkled w a lil bit of fun here nd there wouldn't hurt either) so yea. reading the book also made me feel the current culture, esply my generation is.. WASTED. everything is just wrong. success comes easy for some - just wear lil / get a boob/nose/all-over job done to look good and you'll get everything under the sun / guys not excluded as well / act all hipster to be cool / get caught on cmera w a ciggy a drink, someone good on the other hand and a smart phone saying the stupidest/lamest thing. and boom! you're cool. no one appreciates good music/ good books / good literature / heck not even good movies anymore. it's either quality of things are getting worse, or we people in general are getting stupider by the day.

i don't know about you. but i think chinese culture, though stringent in many ways, has its beauty. i'd still not send my kid to a chinese school though. but perhaps, i think what the book is trying to encapsulate is that a good blend of chinese nd western parenting w  good balance of both's strong teachings would do kids wonders. i think.i have yet to reach the last page but i think i would by tonight. also, i'm planning to buy this book! it's amazing. i hope i'm not on my way to becoming a tiger mom. even if i were, why would it be a bad thing? (am i even hearing myself fml)

will look for the one w tiger stripes for cover. like that better.
so i shall cont w my current reading obsession if you'd excuse me! :D