where did it go?

hi blog. i've been meaning to write but.. most of my days are spent (after work) shower! prcatically my happiest time of the day - a nice cool/warm shower (depending on the weather) where i can finally feel clean, free and alone time for some thinking. then dinner (or sometimes before coming home) and then reading - mostly non work related stuff (can't bear to read more reg ortho but i really really shud).

speaking of which, i'm reading dale carnegie's 'how to stop worrying and start living'. i'm not really the self-enrichment book reading kinda person, but look at the title. i really should have read it much earlier on. i mean, seriously, what is it that i do not worry -__- richdad recommended the book and said he'd get me my copy one day (he had one which he gave to a worry-guy) but i decided to pick it up myself along w another book in kino the other day for a long week in banland. turns out, i could just be the most useful book i've ever read.

cliched, but i honestly feel much calmer after taking some tips off the book. and i'm only halfway through it. teehee. thing is, i really do feel it sinking in me, and that i can really use some of the pointers. i really should have stopped worrying that much and let the living begins. such an emotional burden.

(let me disgress, mummybunny saw the title and sneered - i should get a book for 'start worrying' and i was like whaaaaa? you ARE already worrying every single thing. seriously. duh - which explains where i got all my worry genes from ish)

anyways... where was i. aaaah in short, i just wanna say le panda's coming back to malaysialand in 3 days' time! he just sent off mummypanda at domo. i'm seeing him finally on friday. i have been so exctied and ecstatic to just think of seeing him again!

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my cousin just left sban yesterday for his masters in oz. it was pretty sudden and i was just getting used to having him around i mean he's really nice and all.. but oh well. it got me thinking - everyone's moving around, advancing to some other perhaps greener pastures and all... and i'm just. here.

oh well.

i'm so bored out of my mind most of the time.
and before i'm done being bored. i feel asleep. till i wake up in the middle of the night ,realized i didn't set the alarm, or turned off the lights. cont sleeping after getting all those done. wake up go to work.

i dont have a fucking life.
:(