ramblingssssssss

i've become this camper that goes home after having dinner alone and does not come out till 6 in the morning, who falls asleep at 8.30 at night. ward is draining me dry. was practically a round zombie today. but it's okay. finally.... i'm out of the ward tmrw! wheeeeee got 'rewarded' w an OT shift tmrw and 2 days off for the weekend. this can't be any better.

was comtemplating if i shud go home but was so mentally tired that i can't do the drive home in my head. so i got my fish n chips fix and sui gao fix as well. hmmmmm that 4 bucks was so well spent!

well pls allow me to babble. i haven't had anyone to babble to. except for the other day, when i was out for dinner w K and we yakked and yakked and yakked for hours till i was wayyyy tooooo sleepy to get up and to driveeeee. oh boy i must have aged. and then the next day i had AGE fml.

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pls also let me bring this out while i'm at this. yakkings. this sugardaddy thing baffles me. no this is a whole new character that i've not known or mentioned prior, to save you some yucks. i'm amused and disgusted at different times. depending on what i'm thinking. but most of the time, i'm just .... flabbergasted. also i wanna learn so much more. i don't mind some brain picking... but ffs, pls hold off those ... hmm.... attempts at flirting? JESUS CHRIST!

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started the OFFICIAL countdown to le panda's touchdown bcos i can - because it's down to 10 (though i've been counting since 100 day++) now it'sdown to 8 and i'm in both this disbelief, anticipation, excitement, but also impatience and occasionally anger... as to whyyyyyy it's taking FOREVER. sigh.

truth is... i'm so tired of being alone.

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when i was younger, i rmbr richdad asking me who i wish i could be (as in becoming the person him/herself while retaining the exterior) i hadn't a clue really... so i asked him about his choice, which he chirpily said, without having a doubt: Tiger Woods! so i pretty much echoed him and said i wanted to be , er, serena williams! fml. -____-"

(while in the showers, where thoughts nd ideas flourish) i revisited this conversation again and gave it a harder thought. who, really, would i like to live a life like?

initially, i thought i ws still the same young me, hving no one in mind.
but wait a minute, i think i've got one this time.

Bourdain of course. i'm not saying i wanna take over his body and all..... but i wouldn't mind a life like that. chasing dragons. haha i'm not sure but trying local food both street food and more atas and traveling AND living in nyc upper east side. wahhhhhh.

i wanna be bourdain. teee heeee.

don't think this has to do w me running into him wayyy back when i was 19 in changi which, he might thereafter went to tian tian for chicken rice... but *shrugs* i wasn't a fangirl then but now......

I just wanna go amsterdam / rio de janeiro / japan / ny and MOREEEE . like bourdain himself said it - and i'm hungry for MORE!

so sleeeeeepy now. good night  world.