swimming plan #2 was scratched after making payment into the pool. reason being the pool was 1/4 full of kids, standing in the water -__- and also part of me freaked out. i was expecting the pool to be rather empty! i guess it was a smart idea to not touch the water anyways.. in view of the no. of many ahem. hygiene state dubious tweens and possible many googgley eye session. no thank you very much.

at times like these, i really really wish i have an apt of myself that i can swim all i want. or even better, a poolside house... like the one we had in our villa in Bali. hmmmmmmmm. a stand-alone room w a bath, with full length windown door/windows facing the pool, lined w frangipani trees! a bunny can dream! and in order to make possibly 1/100 of that dream possible, i have to hold on tight now and learn to be a good doc for now. i want to. i just need to know HOW to.

most of the time i feel like a headless bunny running into walls, and looking for burrows to hide. sigh.

anyways... i'm back in banland, with a few days to spare. routines as usual again. i'm glad in a way.. i'm put stay put for these few days. and more occupied and less driving to do. though the familiarity of my own house calls for me. sometimes, being away and being in a less comfortable zone does better to bringing out the good in us. yea?

i'm still having crazy pangs of cravings for sushi and the occasional curry. and omg i still haven't had the burkhara biryaniiiiiiii. fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

and i hate this backache. it's like something i can't seem to crack and it's KILLING ME!